[Human, he'd retort. If he knew. ...And yeah. Mostly human. But. 1) This guy's got his number, great. 2) ...It's not that bad. Who knows where he got it from, but it gives him an opportunity to talk what happened at the masquerade through.
...So.]
He wanted to. This place made him disappear before he could try it, though.
Look, you should do something because you want to do it. Not because other people say you should.
Kadaj told me that you guys came out of Nibelheim, right? That you're not one of the experiments on the townspeople. That you just started living, and you're not even that old. I don't think /anyone/ your age knows what they want to do with themselves. You got to think it through for yourself, and make the decision yours. Otherwise, it's not gonna work.
[But.]
It's not like you've got anything to lose. It's not like you're gonna stop existing because you're not doing what ['that thing wants you to do' he half types. But that's deleted. Kadaj was always sensitive about wording.] you were created for.
What I wanted to say when we met was that it doesn't matter how you're around. Created, accident, born, whatever. You're alive, same as everyone else. So try living for you. It's empty as hell otherwise.
You make it sound simple. Like it should be easy, when it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do, and I have to do it while I turn into a disgusting monster.
Alone.
Do not presume to lecture me as though everything is clear, and that I am foolish for not seeing it.
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( Hi, how are you, hope you've become a long-distance mind-reader since they last spoke because this is all you're getting! )
♥!
You got a job for me, list it on the board.
If not, I got no idea what you're talking about.
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Kadaj. You said he wanted to find his own reason for living.
Did he?
( It's me, ya boy, eldritch clone from another dimension 8') )
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...So.]
He wanted to. This place made him disappear before he could try it, though.
Why're you asking?
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( And while Yazoo has his doubts, he's spent nearly a month in a state of grief that just isn't sustainable anymore. Something has to change. )
It would have meant something to me if Kadaj had succeeded.
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Kadaj told me that you guys came out of Nibelheim, right? That you're not one of the experiments on the townspeople. That you just started living, and you're not even that old. I don't think /anyone/ your age knows what they want to do with themselves. You got to think it through for yourself, and make the decision yours. Otherwise, it's not gonna work.
[But.]
It's not like you've got anything to lose. It's not like you're gonna stop existing because you're not doing what ['that thing wants you to do' he half types. But that's deleted. Kadaj was always sensitive about wording.] you were created for.
What I wanted to say when we met was that it doesn't matter how you're around. Created, accident, born, whatever. You're alive, same as everyone else. So try living for you. It's empty as hell otherwise.
[That was a long message. So, in closing...]
If you want.
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Alone.
Do not presume to lecture me as though everything is clear, and that I am foolish for not seeing it.
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Never said it was gonna be easy. All I said is that it needs to be your call.
We done?
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Unbelievable. )
Alright.
( But that's also life, isn't it. )